Lost....

i can't imagine everything going right. Life is really shitty for me and i don't have any connections with anyone besides my close relatives and a girl. I am wrapped around her finger like a little bitch. She knows it and uses it to her advantage, but the truth is i love her. I can't get over her and i can't get over her, she is the perfect girl for me and fits me. "What happens to a dream defered" what happens to a love lost on the opposite end. What happens when your love doesn't love you.....

Aspirations

Dreams only take you so far, work is the other end. I want this so bad and it fuels me everyday i hope that i can be here in the MLL or NLL....maybe one day i can actually make it.

ALONE

This is me, im fucking lonely. No one to share my feelings with and no one to love, not family but girlfriend i don't know what's wrong with me i just haven't found her....Or maybe i have maybe she's been staring me in the face and i just didn't realize it.

Randomness

I am 6'1.74-176lbs and full of energy, i play lacrosse and hope it takes me far im a ninth grade student and i am extremely random. I am passing some of my classes,I am class president, captain of the lacrosse team and just an overall favorite. I hate my school but love the staff and students i want to become a computer science teacher by attending syracuse university. I love my life and who i am but i am very, very random. I will update my blog with pictures mostly every wedensday.
-Amir Fluellen

My inspiration/bestfriend/love of my life

This lovely young woman is Amira, i love her and am so glad we share the things we do with each other. Amira has a syndrome known as cyclical vomiting syndrome, basically when her period is on she needs to throw-up whenever she speaks or even moves. Amira didn't reveal to me that this could be fatal, and that she was trying to live life to the fullest before her syndrome could possibly take her life. When i found out -unknowingly to her- i cried, because i thought my love and best-friend would be taken from me. i just apologized and kept saying sorry for badgering her about being her boy-friend not knowing what she was going through. One night prior to this happening she really got to know me and i didn't realize that she knew me until she told everyone in our class our relationship status and what i help her out with and what she helps me with, it was amazing and instantly attracted me to her(i was already attracted to her...i mean look at her ^.) even more. This is my blog welcome to my story.

-Amir Fluellen